Sunday, December 26, 2010

Don't quote me

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Because they took the words right out of my mouth..
Some Quotes; this is how I feel tonight..






..I gorged myself... I forced spoonful after spoonful down my throat..later.. sat hunched.. retching back into the ice cream container.... wondering why it was eating something good could make me feel so terrible, while vomiting something terrible could make me feel so good. -The Joy Luck


Sometimes I wonder if someone will ever come for me, if there will ever be a boy—a man—for me to open to. I wonder if I will always be like this, alone, always forced to content myself with myself, my own hand tucked between my legs so that my body makes a kind of circle, a zero, enclosing the clean emptiness of nothingness, a mobius strip or an ouroboros, a serpent swallowing its own tail. I am a closed system, and I yearn, I ache, I hanker for someone to claim what I long to give. –Jean Hegland, Into the Forest

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody—I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat. –Mother Theresa

Fee-fi-fo-fum
Now I’m borrowed,
Now I’m numb.
–Anne Sexton, “The Addict”

It is the docile who achieve the most impossible things in this world. –Rabindranath Tagore
Those who stand back and watch the commotion for years will suddenly take the world by storm. –G. Lorin Swanson

… and all the while I’ll know we’re fucked, and not getting un-fucked soon. –The Antlers, “Bear”


Jesus don't love me, no one ever carried my load
I'm too young to feel this old-Kings of Leon "Cold Dessert"


Well, no one’s gonna fix it for us, no one can. You say that, “No one’s gonna listen, and no one understands.” So there’s no open doors, and there’s no way to get through, there’s no other witnesses, just us two. –The Antlers, “Two”


I’m not living with you. We occupy the same cage. –Tennessee Williams, Cat on a Hot Tin Roof

When you give someone your whole heart and he doesn’t want it, you cannot take it back. It’s gone forever. –Sylvia Plath, quoted by Elizabeth Sigmund in “Sylvia in Devon: 1962,” in Edward Butscher’s Sylvia Plath: The Woman and the Work

There’s nothing quite so humbling as thinking you’re completely over someone, then realizing you’re not even close. –Brian Strause, Maybe a Miracle

I should come with a consumer warning, like the labels that say “Handle with care” or “May be hazardous to your health.” I am unfit for human consumption. I struggle to articulate how awful and isolating this feels, but I can’t find the words. –ditto

Sometimes, I get so consumed by depression that it is hard to believe that the whole world doesn’t stop and suffer with me. –ditto


I am free of all prejudice. I hate everyone equally. –WC Fields, quoted in the Saturday Evening Review, January 28, 1967


I have a new philosophy. I’m only going to dread one day at a time. –Charles Schulz, in “Peanuts”


Accept that loss is part of life, and that sometimes loss leads to fulfillment. This doesn’t mean that you passively just let things slip away from you, that you pretend not to care. It means being brave enough to grab what you can while you can, even though you know it may not last. –Mary D. Esselman and Elizabeth Ash Vélez, The Hell with Love: Poems to Mend a Broken Heart


Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive. –Josephine Hart, Damage

Better to inflict pain on myself than to let other people do it. –Tracy Thompson, The Beast: A Reckoning with Depression

It was easier to lock the doors and kill the phones than to show my skin, because the hardest thing is never to repent for someone else, it’s letting people in. –The Antlers, “Wake”

I am not a joiner. Somewhere I once said that people join clubs now for the very reason they once carried them, a need for security. Maybe I’m alone more often than I should be, because I try to find security within myself. –Rod McKuen, Alone


Why one writes is a question I can easily answer, having so often asked it myself. I believe one writes because one has to create a world in which one can live. I could not live in any of the worlds offered to me—the world of my parents, the world of war, the world of politics. I had to create a world of my own like a climate, a country, an atmosphere where I could breathe, reign, and recreate myself when destroyed by living. That I believe is reason of every work of art. We also write to heighten our awareness of life. We write to lure, enchant, and to console others. We write to serenade. We write to taste life twice, once in the moment and once in retrospection. We write to be able to transcend our life, to reach beyond it. We write to teach ourselves to speak to others, to record the journey into the labyrinth. We write to expand our world when we feel strangled or restricted or lonely. If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing or sing in writing, then don’t write, because our culture has no use for it. –Anaïs Nin, “A New Woman”

Writing is easy. Just put a sheet of paper in the typewriter and start bleeding. –Thomas Wolfe, quoted in Gene Olson’s Sweet Agony


I write only because
there is a voice within me
that will not be still.
–Sylvia Plath

To write is to tell the truth. –Ursula LeGuin


When the time comes to leave, just walk away quietly and don’t make any fuss. –Banksy, Wall and Piece

To love something you know will die is holy. –Kaddish, AIDS memorial, New York, 1987

Those who cling to life die, and those who defy death live. –Uyesugi Kenshin

Make voyages!—Attempt them!—there’s nothing else. –Tennessee Williams

A beautiful thing is never perfect. –Egyptian proverb


Whatever you love is beautiful; love comes first, beauty follows. The greater your capacity for love, the more beauty you find in the world. –Jane Smiley

Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy. –Anne Frank, Diary of a Young Girl

My life has always felt like an unanswered question. A string of days and nights waiting for something to happen. –Michael C. Hall, in Dexter

I say embrace the total geek in yourself and just enjoy it. Life is too short to be cool. –Shirley Manson

Life is at best a dream and at worst a nightmare from which you cannot escape. –Mark Twain


That paradox would begin to run my life: to know that what you are doing is hurting you, maybe killing you, and to be afraid of that fact--but to cling to the idea that this will save you, it will, in the end, make things okay. -Marya Hornbacher "Wasted"



5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I luv this post and can totally relate to some of this same things u r feeling.
Btw you r so beautiful!
Stay strong
xx ;)

Diana Lee said...

Her name is Marya. Marya Hornbacher :)

jessie said...

wow hunie your post highlights some real reality, it really made me think! how eye opening!
stay strong!
<3

Mich said...

You are beautiful!! <3

*Broken* said...

Loved the quotes, I can really relate to a lot of them.
You look amazing!
xx

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