My daughter left with my sister this morning..
I haven't been apart from her for a long stretch of time.
I miss her.
I'm not hungry.
I just can't.
Seems like one day without behaviors is all I can manage.
I'm so sad my chest aches.
I can't even cry the way I want because my daughter is here and she keeps asking me questions. I don't even hear anything over my inner rage at myself for not making 48hrs free of bulimia.
I don't want to try anymore today. I'm going to chug the half of nyquil bottle that I have and not wake up anymore today. I don't care that my left kidney hurts so much today I can hardly walk or move without wincing.
I will never be okay with food will I?
I am so sick of the mere sight of myself feel like cutting my face to match my rotten insides.
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