Thursday, December 22, 2011

Bring it On

"You see, when you skip a meal, your body feeds off it"s fat stores. If you skip enough, maybe your body will eat your ass." - Sparky Polastri, Bring It On

I'm happy, my case worker from Housing called me to tell me that I'm officially on the list and I should get my copy of place on the list in the mail next week.
Woo hoo I hope I can move soon.
I'm still 108lbs but I'm going to work on that, going to bring that down if it kills me!
I was supposed to go to my friend's birthday party but Bank of America decided to bombard my checking account with hidden fees and practically wiped my account clean, I don't have enough for gas and my husband snuck out the house to work so I wouldn't bother him to gas up my car for me. He did this so I had no choice but to stay home.
Oh well, at least I can control what I eat here, at the party would've probably binged and blown 108 entirely..
I went on Craig's List and applied for a receptionist job at a medical office, I emailed them my resume and hope to hear from them again. There are three cleaning jobs I'd like to apply for but can't my daughter is home until January 3, I can't start immediately if I was hired, I have no babysitter.
I saw an ad for an escort service too, I think I may apply for that if I can't find anything come January. I have no self esteem and really need money to claim my independence from my husband. I need out of this abusive relationship.
Maybe it won't be so bad?
I don't know what to do anymore, I need something to change for me finally and I'm willing to do anything. I know jobs in the sex business are frowned upon but what choice have I.
So wish me luck that the other jobs get me first, if not I see my future on my back..