Tuesday, May 17, 2011


I've been in great spirits these days, yes I'm still b/p and all the weight gain from Lexapro is still around, but that hasn't changed anything.
Yesterday my daughter graduated Kindergarten and I couldn't be more proud.

Today I saw my therapist, I'm glad for it too, I was suddenly sad this morning.
Talking to her really helped, her opinion and advice really helped me feel better.
I got a great workout in and then got a phone call from my husband who was in route picking up my daughter from school. They found a stray kitten and wanted to know if they could bring it home?
What was I gonna say?
So yes I'm turning into the crazy cat lady!

His name is Little Bill..
The other two cats are pissed and jealous..dare I say catty?
Who can no to that cute face.
I'm sick today, been sneezing all day. I'm watching Lady Gaga-thon on Fuse channel. She's my new Thinspo, she's so skinny!
I love her, I'd kill to have her body.

I've been told by a few people that I'm "looking toned" whatever that means?
My therapist said I looked great?
I don't see it, been working out more but the number on the scale does not budge. Maybe I have lost inches, but I don't know why the numbers going down matter more to me?
I think I can attribute my good mood to the fact that I've gone easy on myself for screwing up and b/p.
I'll just keep doing what I'm doing. You never get better in one day anyways, it takes time and will. I'll get there but when I'm really ready.
I'm so sorry for sweet Peridot and her loss this week, I hope you feel better sweetie and I'm here to listen if you wanna vent okay?
I'm off lovelies, gonna clean up and bathe my kid. A long week ahead and who knows what awaits. I'll keep up the job search and I miss my friend, a lot.
I've decided to do what my shrink and Danae have suggested, not always be 90% and he 10%..
I'm going to back off and let him miss and go out his way if he wants to talk to me or see me even. I think that's a good idea, helps alleviate added stress. I think I'm worth pursuing and chasing. I need to start loving myself and get back to that positive state. Nothing will change otherwise. I have to stop hating myself so much.
So I hope this happy state continues and I slowly start to feel better and wait out the rest of this month, hoping next month will finally be better.


Ally said...

wow this is really cute you daughter looked so happy. I really do hope it gets better for you. You deserve it.

coffeeXandXcigarettes said...

Awe, the graduation looks so fun, and your daughter looks so cute and happy. The new kitty is adorable as well

mags said...

You and your daughter look so cute! That's got to be a memorable moment for you--graduation from kindegarten! She'll be in high school before you know it I bet.

As for you, you do look toned. It's a good thing. Toned is the opposite of saggy--because someone can weigh very little and still look saggy. Well you look great! No worries there.

I hope the depression stays away for you. Depression is a pain in the ass :/ And I hope you get to see your friend soon.

unbeautiful said...

That graduation looked so fun. You and your daughter looked cute together.
I'm glad you're in a better mood. Hope it stays!

Jenn said...

I LOVE Lady Gaga's bod too, DANG

Emry said...

Happy graduation to your daughter! Looks like a fun time. The picture of you & her is adorable! :)