Thursday, March 15, 2012

Weird Science

I emailed my daughter's teacher this morning, I wanted to ask her some questions concerning the Science project that's due Tuesday.
Good thing I did because once she heard of the cookie project idea she changed everything.
Apparently the cookie idea is too "advanced" or something like that.
I don't get her, she says pick a project and sends a packet with ideas home, then you choose one and she shoots it down?
She assigned a project idea to me instead..
Good thing I didn't spend half the day baking cookies, unfortunately I did do a ton of research and started the packet with that project in mind.

So now the new boring science project is  *drumroll*
"How much Salt does it take to make an Egg float."

Gah, I don't feel like doing any project period.
I'm a little stressed out these days and the Ed is the only thing that seems to be reliable. It's my crutch today and my tormentor.
The more I do it, the more I hate it, the more I hate it, the more I hurt myself.
The constant nag is real loud today, I feel like whatever degrading thing it says I am.
I don't know how to be positive today.

I'm broke tomorrow because I have to pay some bills.
It sucks that I also have to eat all the school expenses too, you'd think my ex would say here's twenty dollars to help out with school.

I feel really frustrated and alone today.
I'm confused about a lot of things.

My hair has started falling out again.
By the handfuls, this makes me cry.
It's stress and Ed related.
I'm malnourished.

I feel so overwhelmed,
like my life is a house of cards, one wrong move and it all comes down.

I wonder when will something better come along for me?
Maybe this is as good as it gets for someone like me.