I work today from 5pm to midnight. Lots of training.
I'm a ball of nerves.
I'm not hungry.
Just forced myself to eat 420 calories.
I feel like crying.
My weight is BAD.
I'm officially at the end of my highest maintaining weight. Maximum allowed by me.
Now I'm panicking, I don't want to keep going up.
Food is making my stomach upset, my head hurts and I'm tired.
I haven't had a bm in forever. I can't argue back if someone tells me I'm full of shit today.
I haven't seen my bf in almost three weeks. This new training schedule has me going in nights and weekends. I barely have seen my kid all week, now looks like even less.
I hardly have anyone to watch her for me.
I feel lonely.
I wish I could bp.
I'll workout and see if it helps.
I don't know what will happen today.
Neurotic,and Eating Disordered but don't hold that against me, I'm just trying to make it through the day.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
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water is a natural laxative. Same with spinach. Drink and eat and excessive amount and within 24 hours I promise u'll be shitting, and hopefully loosing a pound.
Hope you feel better hun
xoxo
Blimey you sound busy!
Things will calm down and settle into a proper routine when training is done.
420cal is about 1/4 of what the recommend an adult female consume in a day. (How did they get those numbers, anyway) Ed can go shove it if he thinks that is too much!
Lack of pooping will be causing some of that high weight, darn it! Water, coconut, raisins and prune juice. Grapes are good too ;) We're getting imported USA nectarines, grapes and cherries right now. You guys grow some tasty fruit!
Do something nice for yourself. Schedule a movie time with the boyfriend and some hang-out time with your Daughter to combat the lonlies.
Hang on, Lou. You can get through the time of stress and busy. It will not last forever (Only until the end of training, hopefully) and then things will settle and you'll have a routine you can work with.
Kia kaha <3
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