Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Okay so I'm going to attempt ABC..
Ugh here we go.
Yesterday I didn't b/p at all, not that I didn't want to or that I didn't go ballistic because I couldn't. I was in a bad mood and to top it off the dehydration had my chest stinging all day and night long. I only slept two hours in the whole of the night. The long cold night was spent back and forth in the bathroom and tossing and turning in bed. Thinking and debating. Too many voices, too many decisions.
I finally caved and have been drinking water non stop. I feel a thousand times better now. The water is being replenished and I'm no longer peeing the color of sunset. The fear of liquids is gone.
I ate yesterday, caloric intake 480.
So technically I'll consider that day 1 of ABC.
The first day is 500 cals or less.                                          


day1: 500 calories(or less)
day2: 500 calories(or less)
3:300 calories
4:400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800
32: fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: fast

I honestly need to do this, I'm tired of Mia and this seems to be the only way be
 rid of her.
I can't b/p today either so I'll continue.
If anyone wants to join me please feel free, I would love feedback and support.
I'm going to get all these calories knocked out early then catch up on my To Do list that I've made to occupy the rest of the day. I'll get an early workout in to burn this all off and then we'll see..

I'm a little bit nervous about this, but tomorrow's intake should be the challenge, to actually keep going because my husband goes back to work and I'll be alone again..Unsupervised.
I'm not gaining, the weight I'm at is still good, if I can continue to lose without Mia on my back then that would be great.
I exercise plenty, my muscles are visible in my legs and arms, my body is slowly but surely becomming suffiently toned, my stomach is the straggler, but I'll whip that sucker into shape soon enough.
Without all the puging it should get distended less and less. I'm also looking into cutting back on meat entirely to help as well. Vegan or Vegetarian won't happen overnight but in time maybe I'll be completely open to this idea.
I've written down in advance what I'll be eating for the day, I'll do that for the rest of the week to be safe and not tempted.
I'll be researching recepie ideas too, the key is not to get bored eating the same thing everyday and also to incorporate healthy things if I can as well. Don't wanna use up all my calories on junk.
I was pretty triggered this morning, but I managed to stay positive and think about this new plan and the success of it actually working. Last night's chest pain was awful, my body won't hold out forever, I've had two health scares already and I'm not looking forward to a third. I have to try something before I hit rock bottom with Mia.
I don't wanna end up hospitalized for dehydration or worse. I have the will to want to do this and I need to strike while the iron's hot.
This week will be a bit stressful for me because I'm inquiring again about insurance, I have no idea how that will turn out, but I'm praying a christmas miracle will happen. I really need insurance.
Friday should be the easy day, my daughter has a Pajama Party at her school, hot chocolate and movies all day in class.
I've bought her cute Pj's and a pillow pet. She's excited and asks me everyday if its Friday.

So here we go ABC day 2..


mags said...

binging and purging also causes the body and face to swell up and get puffy. and as far as I know, there's fewer health risks with restricting.

you've gotten thinner and thinner since I've been reading your blog. I know you have the willpower to do anything. your progress is amazing.

&that pyjama party sounds like fun (:

See said...

congratulations on trying to beat mia, it'll be hard, but I know you can do it! I would love to join you on abc, I just hope I'm strong enough.
I just saw you're little picture in your profile, is that you? if it is you have the most amazing hair!
Sorry, that was random, I hope you're alright, x.

lou said...

@Mags yep chipmink cheeks have happened to me numerous times-so tired of it

@See yep that's me on my Profile Pic, thanks for the hair compliment,
and hope to hear from your progress on ABC

Anonymous said...

i'm pretty worried about you, perhaps you should go to the doctors about your heart concerns? i just want you to be safe. sorry if this is over stepping any boundaries
that's awesome about not b/ping yesterday btw :)

Lucie Love Heart said...

Oh please be safe, I read your blog all the time and I get worried about you sweetheart. Much love and thinking of you. Thank you for all your lovely comments on my blog recently too! xx

*Broken* said...

I know you can beat Mia, see your progress, you can do anything you set your mind to.
Can I do the ABC diet with you? Let me know sweetie