Monday, October 25, 2010


So right now I'm being really naughty.

Drinking my ass off and b/p. I'm drunk.
I have b/p already 2x, Used the "I've drank too much excuse." Managed to eat whatever I wanted and then empty. Going to keep drinking this six pack and then go at it again. My husband is here and yet has said nothing? Purged loudly and when I got out of the bathroom, he's in bed with my IPod listening to music? I don't know if he's trying to ignore it or just missed the chance?
I don't know?
Now I'm on beer number five and plan to purge again..
Smoking too, Boo!. I smell like a bar. All this to lose another pound of course, purging alcohol does that. It also dehydrates you. I will be hungover tomorrow. I'm going to continue to b/p and hope that tomorrow will be better than today. I know the drinking is bad, but right now I just don't care.
I want to just be numb for a few hours. I'm tired of being so alone in this. Will someone just please lie to me and tell me this will pass and I'll be okay?


Anonymous said...

I'm a I'm going to tell you, please be careful :l
You are so amazingly stunning. I wish you were able to see it too.
I wish I could tell you it'll pass and everything'll be ok but..I dunno. Just know, you can do whatever you set your mind to. It is in YOUR power to make a change. whatever that may mean.
Please be careful.

Have a nice day, no fuck that, have an AMAZING day. xxx

lou said...

@f*ckedUpAppendix thanks hun..and you be careful too, be safe.
Its not easy, but its all I know.
Have an amazing day yourself.

Cora said...

Sorry about the impending hangover=\

Ruby LoveBird said...

thank you so much for your book list.
I hope your hang-over scoots on pronto. You bad-ass xxxxxxxxxxxx